Thursday, July 5, 2007

Times

It's been a while since I've bloged last time ;-) Wanted to write about many things. About a perfect relationship with my boyfriend (which tends to fall under the too good to be true category and I expect to fall apart each second), about the storms in Ploiesti, about the awful hot weather in Bucharest.

I live in Bucharest - I share an apartment with a friend. I live in Ploiesti - I share a house with my grandma. I live no place. And having a steady relationship makes it all more complicated. It just makes me feel I want to run and never stop running... I don't like it in Bucharest - I don't feel I belong here anymore. I don't belong to Ploiesti either, even though it's quieter there and I have my cats.

Life is never what it seems and what we thought it would make us happy - well, sometimes the person that knows you least is you. Many things happend this week, but for some reason I don't remember anything. I feel tired. I am trying do get myself together - but somehow trying is not enough.

This year was strange - not quite good, not quite bad, just enough to piss me off. People are nice. What bugs me most about Crangasi, where I live in Bucharest, are the car alarms. Is summer and all the kids from 8 blocks around are out playing, screaming and of course hitting the cars. So not much of an working environment... that's way I've started watching movies again, until my brains starts to melt. Did a lot of brainwashing this year I guess... anyway, I don't remember many of the movies I've seen. I liked "The wedding date" and "The triangle" - and that's pretty much all I can remember... Oh, and the series "Heroes" was quite good, loved the ending idea - that we look in a faraway places what has always been next to us.

The thing is, I love the idea of being single. Been married, been in a steady relationship however, I always kept things for myself. I grew up attached to the idea of loneliness - not in a social way - in a deeper, more personal and intricated way. Somehow, is me and the rest of the world. Is difficult to turn that into us and the rest of the world... But it might just work :-)

1 comment:

adelaida said...

Lasa viata sa-si intre in drepturi. Un priten comun :) de ziua mea, m-a sfatuit sa-mi traiesc viata. Iti intorc acest sfat. Va iubesc pe amandoi.