November blues

It's raining. I watch the drops pushed horizontally on the window by the strong wind. I sit next to the heater and I can hear the warm water being pushed in. It's been raining the entire day...

A few days ago a decree has been passed in Belgium on how the kids are being enrolled in schools - and as a consequence, queues started forming since yesterday in front of the best schools - parents have decided to spend to nights in the cold to make sure their kids get in at the right school (whatever "right" means for each of them). I reminded me of the communist times and the queues to get food. Here is a queue for a different kind of food.

Since my interest here in Belgium is quite different than when I was a stagiaire, I am paying more attention to the education system, healthcare, transportation and public services in general. For example, it was a strike of the postal workers in some of Brussels' communes - each week is a strike.

I like the fact that during a day I get to speak 3 languages. However, I don't feel any joie de vivre. I lost my appetite with this dark sky and cloudy weather. I don't even feel much like surfing the net or writing, two of the things I enjoyed most. I reflect a lot upon my life - what I can still remember of it. Today I forgot the French word for apple ;-) Sometime certain words sound wired to me, like they are coming from a strange language, maybe spoken on a different planet...

I stopped dreaming... no day-dreaming, no dreaming in my sleep. No dreams at all... I wonder where they all go?!...

My baby is kicking and pushing and moving around - I kinda get used to that, is part of the daily routine. And is growing... see below ;-)

I'm doing a bit of reading about pregnancy and stuff but it seems I will never manage to read everything, or at least to get a structured view on what's in store for me ;-)

I am questioning my own decisions, the past, the future... everything seems to be changing around me from one second to another. Each time I think I'm on the right path, a carrefour appears... and it is hard for me to see the difference between the choices. Hm... life is an adventure, just not the kind you would expect ;-)