Here I am, send me an Angel

Yesterday was a strange day. It started bad, it went on ok just to end even worst than it started. The ok part was the meeting with students of my former Faculty - it was supposed to be a meeting with potential students, but it ended up being one with students, librarians and teachers. Anyway, I enjoyed my time today at the University.

The day ended with a huge disappointment - from my part and from the others. It just doesn't matter how many times a person lets you down, some people have this stupid habit of trusting the other person when it makes a promise. Even though years are evidence that the other one is not going to keep his word... It is just this is going to have an impact not only on me but also on other people who relied on me, as I relied on someone else... so here is how a chain of disappointments is put into motion by a single person's incapacity to keep a promise. A promise is just something you say when you are running out of arguments, I should have remembered that. Then you start promising things you can't actually do. I don't know why some people are doing that over and over again without realizing the extension of the damage they do...

So this evening I've listened to a collection of music which I keep for special moments - I went from J. Strauss' The Blue Danube (still my all time favorite) to Scorpions and Mike Oldfield, going through Duke Ellington and adding in a few songs by Cranberries, Simon & Garfunkel, John Lenon's Imagine, Julio Iglesias and ending, as I started, with the Blue Danube. I think it is the most perfect music ever written. As the life begun in water, all the emotions are purified by water. There is no beginning and no end, no past, no future. Just music.