About friends and family

There is no secret that I don’t have very warm fuzzy feelings when it comes to my family. After all, they made me want to put 2000 km in between us! Today I have returned to Brussels, after 10 days in Romania. With 2 exceptions (one night in Bran, and another in Busteni), I had to spend all the nights at my mom’s place. Love her cats, by the way. And as much as I would have liked to stay a few extra days with my boyfriend, to work things out between us, because we have been in a workaholic marathon for the last days, I knew there would be no point in that.

My mom spent a few hundred euros on buying me things I don’t need and I don’t want. There’s no point in arguing with her – she would just tell me what an ungrateful bitch I am and that she can’t do anything right. Well, it depends on the point of view. She bought me a pair of new autumn boots and she insisted I wear before my departure, when I had a lot of running around to do – of course I ended up with bruises on the feet and now every step I take is accompanied by a warm thought for her. I guess she’s happy; at least she made me think of her a lot! Anyway, she bought me two pairs of this boots, which I had to carry with me, even though I do not need them.

Once at ICA, I had to carry my 16 kilos suitcase up 4 floors – the guy that works in the reception is on holiday, and one of the ladies is half my size, the other is more than twice my age. So it took me about 15 minutes to arrive at my small room and when I started unpacking I got upset again, because I just realised one more time that half of the things I needed – like my shower gel and my shampoo, my special toothpaste where not there, but instead I had a tea-strainer, insoles and a lot of blouses I will probably never wear, because are not my style or my size or simply do not fit with the rest of my wardrobe. But I still had to carry those 2000 km and 4 floors up…

And now I have to store them, taking valuable space in my little room. Well, most probably I will not take them with me when I’ll be moving out of here… It is customary to give away the things you no longer need, but I don’t think that can be applied to some of my new stuff, which I would be embarrassed to give away…

But she did buy me something useful: a pair of sleepers. Nice, blue, comfy sleepers. However, I would rather buy myself the stuff I am going to wear – I was planning of taking with me a different pair, which was covering the entire foot, not just the front – and I already had this pair, there was actually no need for a new one…

Well, I guess I’m not going to see or hear my mom for a very long time, so later on I will probably find the energy to make fun of all this… I mean, she is quite a character. Now I just want to sleep for two whole days, and forget everything about my family. I don’t know if my future is in Brussels, but I do know is nowhere in Romania. I am strongly considering Australia…

Besides, I have this feeling that I haven’t done any of the things I wanted to do back there. I have forgotten many of the business documents I need here and probably more will come up in the next days.

Maybe is something wrong with me – I have become so alienated that I can’t stand my own family... Well, with the problems society is facing today, there’s no wonder.

However, life at ICA goes on as always, happy and careless as there is no tomorrow. This evening we had an ad-hoc in-house concert – it is always good when you have around people with musical talent. I needed some refreshment, I needed to change the perspective a bit.

There is still time for worries tomorrow too ;-)